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Todd talks about the reckless stretch after his loss and how it became a strange part of finding his will to live again. Full episode on The Life Shift Podcast.

Todd talks about the relief of finding podcasts and people who felt the same way he did after loss. If you've been carrying it quietly, you're not the only one. Full episode on The Life Shift Podcast.

Todd gets honest about his battle with addiction, the hallucinations, the nightmares, and what it took to fight his way back. If this is you, you're not alone. Full episode on The Life Shift Podcast.

Todd shares how writing his book gave his grief somewhere to go, and why he hopes it reaches someone who needs it. Full episode on The Life Shift Podcast.

Todd talks about the scene with Robin Williams and Matt Damon and the simple words that can shift the way you speak to yourself. Full episode on The Life Shift Podcast.

Todd opens up about the self-blame that came after his loss and how he slowly started to put it down. Full episode on The Life Shift Podcast. If you're struggling, call or text 988 in the US.

Todd shares how stepping into a new persona gave him a strange kind of freedom while he was grieving. Full episode on The Life Shift Podcast.

Todd describes what shock did to his body in the moment everything changed. It's something a lot of people have felt and never had words for. Full episode on The Life Shift Podcast.

Todd talks about the times he should not have made it out, and the turn his life took afterward. Full episode on The Life Shift Podcast.

Todd went undercover twelve months after losing his partner. As Donny, he had no worries. If you are grieving, you can call or text 988 in the US. The full story: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gQAlLsOuAKw

Please note: this story includes suicide loss, heavy drinking and drug use. Todd Maguire was 25 when his partner, Karen, died by suicide. Months later, in a bar, he ran into an old friend who had gone undercover. Todd listened to the stories for a couple of hours. Then they…

Todd walks through the night everything changed, the confusion, the shock, and how unreal those first moments felt. Full conversation on The Life Shift Podcast. Content note: this episode includes loss and suicide. If you're struggling, call or text 988 in the US.

Content note: this episode includes a detailed account of discovering a loved one's suicide. Todd Maguire spent twenty-seven years with the Queensland Police Service, most of it as a detective, including two years working undercover under a new identity: Donny Wilson. But the badge and the alias were only part…

Todd Maguire never wanted to be a police detective, but a dare turned into 27 years of service and a life-changing loss. Todd's story starts with a simple dare at a pub that led him into a 27-year career in the Queensland police force. He spent years working as an…

Travis gained weight on his medication and felt dismissed by the doctors he went to for help. He talks about tapering himself off, and what it feels like when the usual path stops working.

A visualization Travis's therapist taught him. Every ugly thought gets crumpled up like paper and floats downstream. He talks about how simple it is, and how it helped him watch his own mind with a little more compassion.

Travis talks about an intense stretch of therapy and the breakthrough that came out of it, learning how to actually be there for himself. Years of managing everything alone, and then something shifted.

Travis describes dissociation as an out-of-body experience. You're there physically, and mentally you're gone. He talks about the drive home he can't remember, and how his mind went to the one place that had always felt safe.

The medication meant to control Travis's seizures gave him hallucinations. He talks about the neurologists, the psychiatrist who ruled out mental illness, and the hard choice he made to taper off against medical advice.

After the diagnosis, Travis went back to a therapist, found a functional medicine doctor, and changed the way he ate. None of it happened fast. He talks about those first real steps toward feeling like himself again.

Travis talks about the moment he understood that stress was what set off his seizures. It changed how he saw everything, and it's where therapy finally came into the picture.

After his seizures, Travis walked out of jobs mid-shift and never went back. He couldn't find the words to explain what had just happened. He talks about the shame of that, and about slowly building a career again from the ground up.

In late 2024 the seizures came back all at once, and this time doctors had a name for it. PNES, stress firing through the body in a pattern that looks like epilepsy. Travis talks about what it was like to finally hear that word.

He woke up surrounded by paramedics. The first question was about drugs. The full story: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BDxQHt6Z75w